one awesome night after another

if i haven't said it enough.

i freakin love it here.

in alaska.

this  whole seasonal work.

this free living.

it amazes me what each day brings. how fast the weekends come and go.
while another day off awaits me tomorrow sooo much has happened in the past few days...

last night i got a call from the morning sous chef that the night janitor knocked over a tiny two tiered wedding cake i did for today. entire thing ...splat on the floor.

eh shit happens...that's the advantage of working 8 yrs in a bakery will teach u. u know how many times i've had to deal  with the destroyed cake situation and it's due in8 hrs. soon my day off i head into work (to get a free breakfast) and to redo the cake.the entire time everyone saying "oh r u mad, u must be pissed". and honestly it's whatever. i just feel for the poor guy whole knocked the cake over. man he must be feeling like crap right about now. so long story short, cake got done. it wasn't near as awesome as it was the first time around but mission accomplished.

last night there was a meteor shower and full moon and northern lights. i only saw the moon. but it was enough to fill me for the night. earlier that day i spent some time at the river with a few friends and met a woman named "white eagle" who played a large alaskan tribal drum she made herself. we spent a better part of 45 min talking with her and hearing about her worldly adventures and the knowledge to brings to people. we helped her bless the drum in the river. we cupped the glacier water with our hands and rubbed it over the buffalo hide and white eagle sang a prayer chant. then we hauled the drum up to her rv where some of her friends were. the entire thing in itself was so alaskan. i mean honestly. i closed my eyes as she sang and put my hand on the drum and it was such an energy running through me. no where else could u do something like this. it was meant to be in that place and time. something that i will never forget.

then tonight i went to dinner with hermi (christine) and her mom. i gotta tell u. that mom of hers is one amazing woman!! she has been working in Haiti for the past six months doing some incredible things there. she works at an orphanage and lives in a convent for safety.  her main goal (or what i got out of it) is to teach the Haitian people skills that they can survive on and make a living. for example she is convincing me to come to Haiti with her for two weeks in januray to teach the children at the orphanage my baking/decorating skills. in her words " what is two weeks out of your entire life" AHH!!! i love that. seriously what is two weeks!!!! to be able to have the connections to go somewhere and have someone there who will take care of you and make sure your safe the entire time. but most of all to go somewhere that is poor beyond belief and to have an impact on a community. to teach them a skill then leave. a skill that will help them earn a living and better their life.

i sat and listened to her. everything she had to say. and i asked my typical questions " what is ur life lessons/advice u can offer me". i hope i can retain everything i learned tonight and it's not all hazed by the bottle of wine.

i think that ultimately the lesson in life is to have courage. courage to do what u want. to not get stuck in one place. to contribute nothing to society in the end? to go against the grain. there are few people if any back home that will ever understand what i'm talking about or have gone through in the past months but there is comfort in knowing that there ARE people out there who go and follow their heart and throw inhibitions to the wind. that if things are meant to be, it's meant to be. it will take a strong willed person to put on the horse blinders back home and ignore what everyone is saying about settle down, get a career, 401k blah blah. i say get out and live a little. my journey has just started....it's not over, or so i hope not. that is why i gotta get some more courage and keep on truckin'