So here I am sitting in my hotel room and it’s Sunday morning. I woke up this morning about 6 am local time. I have no idea what time the sun sets but it still does up here. This time change will def take a little getting used to.
I took my time getting ready this morn and in a strange way already feel way out of place here. With my highlighted hair, make up, jewelry, and attire. But I have to learn to be secure in myself and who I am. I really think that thru out this entire journey that is the true lesson that I will have to learn.
I am alone now, and a little lonely to be honest. I think because everything is so fresh. I am timid to go out in town and walk around since I feel so out of place. And with a big honkin’ camera around my neck I don’t need any added attention. I wish Dan was with me to go exploring. There is supposedly a lake near by.
Later today I have to take a taxi to a meeting place downtown where another shuttle will pick me up to take me two hours away to Talkeetna. While I’m nervous at this moment to go explore (cause it is still early only ) instead I will use my time and try to look at it in a positive light….
Instead of feeling sorry for myself and like I’m doing something wrong but staying in my hotel room, I’d like to think of it as this may be the last real quite time I get for a while. And this is my trip so I will do whatever feels comfortable to me. So if that means reading up on how to work my camera, or journaling then I will. And I still have plenty of time before I need to check out so I may just take a walk to find this lake or get some lunch.
This is just a few hours of loneliness. Before I know it I will be at my new “home” where I can settle in, meet new people, and unpack.
In the beginning this was supposed to be my personal journal entry and I was only going to blog about my adventures and “cool” stuff but I’m a real person, and while everyone keeps saying to me oh you’re so brave there are true moments of weakness and fear. I know there will be days ahead that I’m overjoyed and won’t be able to get enough of this place and days where I will want to throw in the towel. But I truly think that knowing all this going into it and being realistic will help me push trough it all.
I know there will no greater sense of satisfaction when this journey is over and I can say I DID IT.
Only 20 weeks left….
So proud of you Michele! Don't ever let fear hold you back from your dreams, take your time and do what feels "right". Nothing wrong with staying in and just reflecting and allowing yourself some time to get adjusted. Before you know it you will be out and about exploring and documenting! Love ya! Thinking of you often :)
ReplyDeletethanks so much for commenting cara. it's such a nice little present to see when i have a comment. thanks for the encouraging words :)
ReplyDelete"It is a blessed thing that in every age someone has had enough individuality and courage to stand by his own convictions."
ReplyDelete~ Robert G. Ingersoll
Being different is a good thing, it's what makes you 'you' and not someone else.
Hey Mitch,
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blogs. I'm so proud of you. You have courage like no one else I know. You'll be so happy with yourself when you return home. I miss you so much. The salon isn't the same without you. But you knew that was gonna happen. Talk to you soon.
Love,
Kollene
I really, really, REALLY wish you had taken me up on my offer of a friendly, local, former Princess worker friend and tour guide. It would have been a much more eventful entrance into 'the land of the midnight sun' for you.. and you definitely wouldn't have been alone or lonely.
ReplyDeleteHang tough and enjoy the sunshine.